Saturday, December 09, 2006
i just went through a week of hell.
projects and presentations just sucked the hell out of me. i was left awake for 4 nights with a total of 4 hours of sleep only. my eyes darkening, my brain drying, my head spinning, my voice breaking, my throat coughing, my heart racing.
these projects made me skipped carolling, something i'd never though i would skip in my entire life. it's what keeps me going for christmas, the thing that bonds us fate together, the love of fate, our gathering, our hopes, our passion. i'm so sad i missed it
I gave a miss on my beloved inno boy friends, my darlins who love me and miss me so much, i miss u guys too, i'm so sad i couldnt make it, screw projects man, i miss u all!!!
thanks my dumb dumb girls for bringing me through this week of hell, the fish bee hoon dinners, the bubble tea talks and mrt rides. =) love u'all for the cooking sessions at my house, the talks in the parks, the vcds that put the bear to sleep, the strumming of the guitar, the songs and the ever sinful bens and jerrys.
there has been alot of sudden suprises, reviving the past and ending of the present situations. things left unsettled, things left hanging, things left unclear. i dun want it to be left this way, give me a chance, a moment, a single glimpse of hope for a reason. that's all i need. it's been 4 years now.
so many things to say, so many things to do. yet so confused, and dunno what to do. wanna be left alone, want to run away from it all, afraid of the result, afraid of the outcome, afraid of you
thank you for giving up, thank you for lovin me, i may regret, maybe next time, but for now, i thank you